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No resolutions...
Everyone has been listing New Year's resolutions in their LJ entries. I can't think of a single one. I'm constantly challenging myself to improve in almost every aspect of my life...to list that would be an ongoing project and not a special once-a-year thing, and so I won't bother.
I guess if I could make one new promise to myself, I'd ask myself not to get so upset about situations that are beyond my control. Still, that's just my nature and so tightly woven into who I am...I can't seem to separate myself from my own tendency to want to "fix" things. Even when things aren't fixable. It's like the way I drive a car; I always make a turn signal even when no one is on the road besides me. That way, I never have to make a judgement call about whether or not to use a turn signal because it's something I automatically do. Of course, sometimes that means I make signals for no reason at all. *shrug*
I have had a productive, dragon-filled weekend.
Isn't he pretty? Another Asian Flame dragon. I added whiskers to this one 'cause he's a gift & needs to be extra-special.
Been making a lot of gifts lately, to thank key people from last year's adventures. Perhaps that is my way of greeting the new year; remembering to thank people for my exceptional 2008. I'm a little sad to see it go actually; could I ever possibly top such an incredibly magical series of events? When you reach the top of the mountain, all roads forward seem to travel down, a bit (before they head back up again).
I'm measuring the potential of 2009 in the masks I've signed '09 on so far this year; every one is a spectacular piece and every one is a gift. Perhaps that bodes well...? I'm also taking heart in the "Year Of The Ox" thing; fortitude and hard work seem to be good things to aspire to.
Well, anyway. Here's to 2009. I'm channeling my inner ox.
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It could be that I just THINK of myself as lazy because I was when I was a teenager. Maybe I outgrew it. Maybe now I'm just honestly too tired, sometimes, and I shouldn't call it laziness. But if you had a bad habit once you always feel like you have to jump up and down on it so it can't get out again...
I think I'd better stay away from my 'inner ox'. That or my 'inner boar'. I think maybe my boar and my ox melded and took over. Because actually, I'm a horse, you know.
I can never remember the horse attributes, though.
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http://pages.infinit.net/garrick/chinese/horse.html
It actually seems to fit you a lot, except for the part about traveling & leaving home early.
I think a goal to be reasonable is a very good one. I should adopt that too, actually. It hurts, beating yourself up when you don't have to. :-/
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Hmm, fits me about 60% I'd say. I find that with horoscope/etc...anything with a personality profile, I can find several that fit me equally, so I never really buy into the profiles much. I can be cunning, yeah, but the difference between that and intelligence is minimal. You have to be pretty intelligent to be cunning. I hate parties, and people DO find me easy going in most circumstances but it's more because I don't really care than because I'm friendly/a people person.
I'm also a very confident person, which goes directly agains what it says about the horse.
So yeah, about sixty percent right, and the rest is REALLY far off. Isn't that always the way with that sort of thing? :)
For me a goal to be reasonable was getting kind of desperate. It HAD to be done. I was driving myself insane by not taking my circumstances into account. I mean, it's very hard to separate laziness from genuine exhaustion when you have a chronic fatigue situation.
You're goal oriented, and ambitious, I feel. I've NEVER been ambitious. Not even slightly, not in the way most people would define it. Look at the way I live my life! Lol :) I'm content to molder quietly out of the way where no one can see me at all. I just like to be in CONTROL, to have total say over what happens with ME. When I can't, I take control of any aspects I can still grab onto. Becoming tireder and tireder and gaining weight more and more easily makes me so farkin' ANGRY that I hurl myself against it to an unreasonable level.
Hence the decision to be more conscious of what is reasonable. :)
You're a naturally hard worker, I think. Not that being a hard worker isn't a conscious decision, it's just that working hard isn't an option that everyone considers seriously in most circumstances. Most people just take the middle road automatically rather than striving for the top, but you're a top-striver. :)
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Everyone is lazy when they are a teenager. I think it's the hormones...they prevent concentration. I think almost all teenagers are half-mad with PMS-like symptoms until they are 17 or so...then it starts to level out. So, it's not their fault (this is what I, as the mother of a teen, keep telling myself whenever I feel like shaking Char or one of her friends)...