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Coffee, chocolate, video games...
I think I've been working too much, perhaps. Everything is upsetting me today.
The news is upsetting; the stimulus plan hopes to create five to six million jobs by the end of the year (that's an optimistic estimate) but I just saw on CNN that 600,000 new applications for unemployment were opened last week. Over half a million people fresh out of work...in one week. That scares the heck out of me.
The child is upsetting; Char told me yesterday that she thinks I love the dog more than I love her. I can't tell if she really meant it or she was just trying to hurt me for some reason, but it still stings. The dog, at least, never tries to make me cry.
Friends are upsetting; I don't know why but my online social connections are all screwy & angsty & sad lately. This is troubling because I am SO isolated between work & the weather that all my friendships are online. & everyone is too grumpy to be nice. Well...not everyone, but you know what I mean.
Winter is upsetting; today was supposed to be a bit warmer than yesterday. Instead, the cold front has stalled out right over our heads, so we have another day of single digit temps. I cranked the heat & still I'm freezing.
So. I'm going on strike. I did a load of dishes & a load of laundry. I cleaned the cat box. I made a few barrettes for my etsy shop...and that will have to be enough, today. I'm putting on some big warm sweatpants and a big fluffy sweater & I'm going to play video games all day, I've decided. I haven't played any games at all since I opened my Etsy shop over a year ago (yes truly! I know in my DevArt profile I mentioned some games 'cause I used to play those all the time, but really I haven't touched any in over a year). Greg bought me Ratchett & Clank games for our PS3, which is over a year old & I've never used it once. Today I will remedy that situation.
If anyone wants me I'll be curled up on the couch, playing R&C.
EDIT: Okay so I entered a contest on Etsy (art submissions of holiday-themed pieces...I thought my Harlequin Romance masks were perfect for that). And later I have to hop on & buy some darn Main Showcase spots 'cause they sell out in mere minutes & they only go for sale once every two weeks. But that will be IT. *doesn't know how to truly relax*
The news is upsetting; the stimulus plan hopes to create five to six million jobs by the end of the year (that's an optimistic estimate) but I just saw on CNN that 600,000 new applications for unemployment were opened last week. Over half a million people fresh out of work...in one week. That scares the heck out of me.
The child is upsetting; Char told me yesterday that she thinks I love the dog more than I love her. I can't tell if she really meant it or she was just trying to hurt me for some reason, but it still stings. The dog, at least, never tries to make me cry.
Friends are upsetting; I don't know why but my online social connections are all screwy & angsty & sad lately. This is troubling because I am SO isolated between work & the weather that all my friendships are online. & everyone is too grumpy to be nice. Well...not everyone, but you know what I mean.
Winter is upsetting; today was supposed to be a bit warmer than yesterday. Instead, the cold front has stalled out right over our heads, so we have another day of single digit temps. I cranked the heat & still I'm freezing.
So. I'm going on strike. I did a load of dishes & a load of laundry. I cleaned the cat box. I made a few barrettes for my etsy shop...and that will have to be enough, today. I'm putting on some big warm sweatpants and a big fluffy sweater & I'm going to play video games all day, I've decided. I haven't played any games at all since I opened my Etsy shop over a year ago (yes truly! I know in my DevArt profile I mentioned some games 'cause I used to play those all the time, but really I haven't touched any in over a year). Greg bought me Ratchett & Clank games for our PS3, which is over a year old & I've never used it once. Today I will remedy that situation.
If anyone wants me I'll be curled up on the couch, playing R&C.
EDIT: Okay so I entered a contest on Etsy (art submissions of holiday-themed pieces...I thought my Harlequin Romance masks were perfect for that). And later I have to hop on & buy some darn Main Showcase spots 'cause they sell out in mere minutes & they only go for sale once every two weeks. But that will be IT. *doesn't know how to truly relax*
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I hope that some down time with some video games helps your mood improve--you have been working really hard lately, and screwing up your sleep schedule (and these days, at least for me, short changing myself on sleep multiplies my stress/unhappy levels by at least tenfold) and you said it yourself that self employed people are less likely to take time off. Your discipline and work ethic is a big part of why you are as successful as you are at what you do--it takes more than talent (though you have that in spades, too!) but as a friend of mine strongly reminded me recently, you have to remember to take time out, not just for other people in your life, but for yourself.
Those shower bombs sound really, really awesome. I discovered Lush in Toronto--it's an incredible store, and now we have one locally too. I have stupidly sensitive skin, so I can't use most commercial soaps, but I can use theirs, and while they are pretty expensive they also last a nice long time. I didn't have good luck with the shampoo I tried, though I have a "hard water" one for Pennsic that I'm hoping (fingers crossed!) will work better. But the soaps, bath bombs, and bar lotions are all awesome stuff.
I'm afraid I am one of your grumpy friends on your friends list--sorry about that! I don't do well in winter anyway--that ugly combination of much less physical activity combined with not nearly enough sun, I suppose, and the fact that I don't cope well with really cold temperatures--and this winter has been an especially bad one, on so many levels. I want to love February, because it's birthday month in my family and for a big chunk of our friends-- my brother's, my husband's, and my birthday are all coming up quickly, and quite a few of my friends have birthdays in there too. But to be honest my birthday tends to make me moody anyway, and you add in the cold and the lack of sun and everything else and I just want to hibernate for the next two months and not move again until the sun comes back.
And I'm not half as productive on any given day!
At least the days are definitely getting longer, and we've had several days in a row of real (even bright!) sunlight, so that's a plus, and it's even starting to (finally!) warm up. May warmer temperatures and plenty of sunshine be on route to you, too.
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This weather is a big big problem for me this week...there's just no escaping it. Greg's car is old & not reliable in the cold & snow, so I've been isolated & just STUCK here & that tends to make me crazy.
In other words; it's not you, it's me.
I do need to just take a break every now & then (& I'm terrible at it. Tonight I ended up taking two orders & I even finished a mask)...I just can't stop worrying about this economy. Every sale I get, I'm afraid will be my last. I'm actually doing even better right now than I was last year, but I still worry. That's the nature of my business though, & I need to find some way to make peace with it.