:-) You're so sweet. Yeah, you make sense. I guess I just feel funny because I really ~want~ to have a big house full of friends and an open door...but at the same time I know it could never happen because I need to be alone to do my work. My career isolates me...and my career is a big part of who I am, so I'm stuck. And yet, for some reason I don't think *anyone* in my life would guess how alone I feel.

I like who I am, but if I could change some things about myself I think I'd try to temper my work time with more social time, because I feel like that's way out of balance.