I'm not an art-artist, but enough of a creative person to think I may know what you mean. It doesn't bother me, though, as I seem to be a combination of you and Mel: I hate People in general, because the overriding collective traits of humanity tend to be really sucky at best. I keep closer people out of my head, too, because that's where all my creative energies need to be, which makes it no place for anyone I like and/or love. *SMUSH ALERT* When you're getting down to the nitty-gritty emotional stuff with someone you care about, it's really your heart being used as the medium, not your head--or at least mine is. Most of the time, even Mike just sees that surface layer, because it's too exhausting not to use my head around him.
I gather from a few re-readings that you feel you don't let anyone in at all, and you feel as if you're cheating them of your real self. Well, you're a wonderful pet owner, mom, wife, and online friend--what else do you want, woman? :P You can't show the emotion I've seen in your LJ and not be a good person. If it can only come out over the Internet and not IRL, that's because some things just can't.
...Does any of this make any sense? I'm all hopped up on caffeine and not as coherent as usual.
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Date: 2006-07-08 12:13 am (UTC)I gather from a few re-readings that you feel you don't let anyone in at all, and you feel as if you're cheating them of your real self. Well, you're a wonderful pet owner, mom, wife, and online friend--what else do you want, woman? :P You can't show the emotion I've seen in your LJ and not be a good person. If it can only come out over the Internet and not IRL, that's because some things just can't.
...Does any of this make any sense? I'm all hopped up on caffeine and not as coherent as usual.