Well it's Tuesday!  I feel like I deserve a cookie for surviving Monday.

 

I don't know...Monday was just a very long and tedious day on so many levels.  Any day you start by passing out is not going to be a good day.  I really need to go to my doc and have something done about my unresolved monthly troubles, because I am so obviously still anemic and this ongoing problem has me really concerned.  I'm actually wondering if I should just get the hysterectomy & be done with it all.  *sigh*  Been holding out, but eh...it might just be time to bite the bullet.

Still, I had way too much stuff that needed doing & passing out was not an option, so after orange juice and a nice hot shower I was human enough to get busy and get things rolling.  Stuff I did:

*folded laundry
*mailed orders
*bought more colored tissue paper (I gift wrap every order with tissue paper...isn't that cute?)
*exchanged sad three-year-old phone for shiny new skinny phone at Sprint store (my old phone was 2 inches thick & had an external antenna...LOL)
*picked Char & friend up from school, took her shopping for sneakers
*Office Max for work supplies (going through shipping & mailing supplies like crazy)
*took Char & her friend home, fed them large amounts of orange juice & scrambled eggs, drove them to rugby practice
*Gas for car, wash car
*Greg picks Char up at practice, I feed everybody
*Watch Heroes

And yeah, that was enough.  I like my new phone, it's red and small and neat.  I used it to call my sister after Heroes...I need help with advertising.  Nancy says Facebook has a great deal & she said she'd help me set it all up.  It'll be an investment but I think it's a great idea.  I already spend almost $200 a month on Etsy showcases with limited results, so I think going outside of Etsy might be an interesting alternative.  So, we are doing that tomorrow & I'm pretty excited about it.

Twenty four hours have passed since I opened it and the ShopHandMade store is being less than stellar.  I'm not impressed.  I took a good look...it seemed to be well populated with talented artisans at first glance but actually they are all like me.  Their primary store is on Etsy & this place is an experiment; we all have just a few items in there.  Oh well...everything has its start somewhere so in time this might get better.  I'm not holding my breath though.  *grumpy*

Char has started her Rugby season.  For some odd reason she decided this was the sport she wanted to do, so I'm encouraging her.  I'm a little worried 'cause it seems like a rough sport.  She's pretty tough though; small & fast which is perfect for the "back" position.  Her first practice went really well & she was high on endorphins all night, which was adorable.  Her season is going to be brutal; two hours of practice every day with games almost every weekend.  This weekend there's no game, just a HUGE clinic I have to drive her to in Orchard Park...thousands of kids will be there.

I've never seen her this excited about a team sport before.  She had a few years of track (and she was quite good at it...very fast!  Ran a great anchor leg in the 4 X 200 relay that was simply amazing) but she hated the pressure.  This seems like something she really wants to do though, so I'm all for it.  Just hoping she doesn't get her nose broken or anything drastic...  o_O"

I have things I ought to be making but I am so tired.  As Scarlett O'Hara says; "Fiddle dee dee.  Tomorrow is another day." 

 


From: [identity profile] ramblinsuze.livejournal.com


I can't remember, have you tried ablation? That might help fix the problem (or at least make it more manageable) without resorting to a hysterectomy. The hysterectomy is such an unknown quantity. I've known people who were thrilled and relieved and felt so much better when it was done, and also known people for whom it just opened up a whole host of other problems.

Anyway, whatever you decide to do, you should definitely talk to your doctor about it. If you're so anemic that you're passing out, that is NOT a good sign. *hands over a few of my iron pills*

exchanged sad three-year-old phone for shiny new skinny phone at Sprint store (my old phone was 2 inches thick & had an external antenna...LOL)

*looks askance* Is there something wrong with a phone that's 2 inches thick with an external antenna? LOL I have to admit to being a total Luddite when it comes to cell phones. I never use mine, except in emergencies, so it's almost always off and buried in the bottom of my purse somewhere.

Charlotte is playing *rugby*??? God love her. That is a damn brutal sport. I hope she has fun, though! :D

From: [identity profile] merimask.livejournal.com


I did the ablation exactly a year ago. It had limited success with it (instead of bleeding to death for two days, now it's more like one & a half) but still the anemia persists and I'm SO tired. :-/ I'm still afraid to get the hysterectomy though...it seems like such a drastic solution & I don't want to go into menopause any sooner than I have to.

Hee...I hardly use my cell phone myself. Char says it was embarrassing though & frankly I sort of hated it too...it was clunky and not good. My new phone was free! Again, I was chastised by Char (& the kid at Sprint) because I picked out the most basic skinny phone they had. At least this one has a camera! Apparently I'm still a loser 'cause no I-tunes & no internet access on this one. Oh well. :-)

From: [identity profile] ramblinsuze.livejournal.com


Ah, I couldn't remember if you were one of the the, like, three people I know who had it done in the last year. Unfortunately, your experience sounds pretty much the same as most of the other folks I know who've had it done. I know one or two people for whom it worked brilliantly, but the others have reported the same problems - continued heavy bleeding, etc. Oh well...

Yeah, I think that's about all you can do short of a hysterectomy. At least that procedure has come a long way in the last 10-15 years. By having just a partial (removal of the uterus, but leaving the ovaries), the hormonal disruption is somewhat less and it's better for your body. My friend Deb said it was the best thing she's ever done and wished she'd done it sooner! :)

*giggle* Ah, the cell phone. It's so funny, we're talking about teens and technology in my class this week, and cell phones are one of those "must have" items (with all the accouterments). Geez...I dont' even answer my *home* phone! XDDD

From: [identity profile] golden-meliades.livejournal.com


LOL as soon as you said 'drove to rugby' I thought...Charlotte? Rugby? But she's tiny and girly, isn't she? I was sure you hadn't mentioned her being in rugby before because I would have remembered something like that for sure.

I have six aunts on my dad's side, oldest to youngest: Linda, Ruth, Donna, Nancy, Arlene and Connie. Linda, Ruth and Donna have ALL had hysterectomies, now...and I'm kind of expecting my other aunts will end up having them as well between the age of 45 and 50 (that's when the other three had them). Seems like that side of the family just can't keep their bits or risk death (all the hysterectomies were for REALLY serious reasons, like...they had no other option if they wanted to live, kind of a thing...or close.) They all seem perfectly fine about it, but I never asked. (My family is soooo not a close one, outside the immediate members...my parents and siblings and me.)

I'd check out what effects it can have and weigh those (only 'possible' not 'definite') effects against what's going on now. Though really, how much worse could it get? And if it got worse even after your procedure (this MUCH worse) which was an ablation, right? Anyway, if it did that, it seems inevitable that you won't be able to wait until menopause. Menopause is probably ten years away. So that's another factor. (I wish I hadn't been born with reproductive bits at all. I want to be a girl...I just hate my ovaries and so on. They're so useless and encumbersome! I have no interest in having children and I've always had bad cramps AND my family has severe bleeding problems on both sides so I'll probably develop them eventually, too.)

This site seems very anti-hysterectomy but gives some interesting information: http://www.safemenopausesolutions.com/hysterectomysideeffects.html Of course, they WOULD quote anything bad, because they're trying to sell supplements that you wouldn't need if you had one. But certainly the side effects are true, though I'm not sure about their stats. The womenshealth site is less 'basically only an idiot would have a hysterectomy unless they had cancer' about things, but they look at both sides as well. I followed several other womensheath links to this page so there's a LOT more info within that site than just what is on that page: http://womenshealth.about.com/od/hysterectomy/a/hystalternative.htm

Of course, you've likely looked up lots of info already. But just in case. :)

Sounds like you shopped and drove around all day. I don't mind that if it's in the country but otherwise? Bleck. Driving makes me tense in large towns/cities.

From: [identity profile] merimask.livejournal.com


Yep, the rugby is a new thing. She started talking about it a month ago & intends to be really serious about it, so I am supporting this new ambition of hers. Actually, studies show that kids involved in a school sports program do better in their classes & are healthier in general than kids who don't so I think it'll be a good thing (if she sticks with it).

Oh man...the hysterectomy thing scares the heck out of me. I've read all the literature I can get my hands on & it seems like a really BAD idea. The ablation only helped to a small degree though because I still have enough problems to cause me to be anemic & pass out. Doc wants me to try a second ablation before anything else but I'm chicken 'cause it hurt SO much. Something has to give though, because I spend three days or so completely unable to do anything & then half a month recovering from that. Every month. It's a bit much. :-/

From: [identity profile] merimask.livejournal.com


Yay! Out of sheer stubbornness I never changed the clock in my car. Soon, it will be accurate again. ^_^

From: [identity profile] ramblinsuze.livejournal.com


LOL I used to do that in my old car because it was simply too difficult to get the stupid clock to change. I miss Arizona...we stayed the same while the world changed around us. Honestly, I never noticed the difference!

From: [identity profile] golden-meliades.livejournal.com


Yep. When you go to bed on Sunday, remember to put your clock forward an hour, for sure. :)

From: [identity profile] thegeminifactor.livejournal.com


More just marveling at the date than anything else; February was, what, two weeks long?

From: [identity profile] golden-meliades.livejournal.com


Well, I suppose in some parts of the world it might have been two weeks...but here in not-at-all-southern Ontario, February lasted about ten weeks, by feel. It's been eternity. So glad it's over. :)

From: [identity profile] angeljapan.livejournal.com


Go Japan! Don't have to worry about that at all! ^_^ Of course... it being pitch black dark at 4:15pm in December is a pain..... Also the 4:00am rising sun.....

From: [identity profile] golden-meliades.livejournal.com


So I guess it's all a matter of which drawbacks bother you least, lol. Everywhere has a downside. Canadian winters really are the pits, though. Boo hoo!

From: [identity profile] pamwax.livejournal.com

I'm actually wondering if I should just get the hysterectomy


Don't be afraid honey. The most liberating thing I have ever done in my life was have a hysterectomy. It was my 40th birthday present to myself and believe me when I say I couldn't get on the table fast enough. I did keep 1 ovary so menopause started normally in my 50's

From: [identity profile] merimask.livejournal.com

Re: I'm actually wondering if I should just get the hysterectomy


I'm just so sick of this persistant anemia and all the problems it causes...but compared to the unknown it seems preferable for now. The idea of MORE surgery scares the heck out of me, especially after last year.

From: [identity profile] madshutterbug.livejournal.com


There may be very good reasons for hysterectomy while at the same time not performing oophorectomy, a fancy way of saying Leave the Ovaries. Someone's already mentioned this. In fact, unless there is also a very strong indication to do so, most GYN's will opt to leave at least one ovary behind for reasons of preventing or decreasing the likelihood of other problems or diseases. On the other hand, if it is a totally 'elective' procedure, health insurance may not cover the expense. Find out about that if you opt to pursue this.

It is your choice, and it is a solution to some of the problems you list. There are other options and I'd expect your GYN to discuss those with you.

From: [identity profile] merimask.livejournal.com


My doc thinks a second ablation procedure would be a better option. It just hurt so much that I'm afraid to try it again (& I had limited success with it as well). *sigh* I have to make my mind up soon though because I do not want to be recovering from anything when bicycling season comes around again...leaves me about a month here to decide.

From: [identity profile] golden-meliades.livejournal.com


But weren't you put on an anaesthetic/relaxant that, in a few people, can actually end up making pain worse rather than better? (Something starting with a P? It was a long time ago, I can't remember the names any more.)

If that was changed maybe you wouldn't have any pain at all. Or ask to be put out entirely...your doc KNOWS you had too much pain last time, he should be able to offer you options to prevent that if you want to try again.

From: [identity profile] merimask.livejournal.com


Yeah, it was valium & it ended up making things worse rather than better. He said he'd try it with "something else" but frankly I'm not in the mood to "try" because what if it hurts again? I was brave the first time 'cause I had no idea how bad it was going to be. I just can't chance it a second time though. Nothing will do but for me to be OUT completely, or I won't do it.

The darvocet though,that stuff was great. It kind of scares me because it was SO nice...the darvocet. To be honest I liked it a bit too much. If you think of a drug fondly a whole year after you last took that drug...probably you need to be careful. It was such a "happy pink clouds" kind of drug, you know?

From: [identity profile] madshutterbug.livejournal.com


One anesthetic/deep sedation that you could ask for is Propofol. Amongst other things (besides being an excellent anesthetic, something both observed and experienced when I got my kidney stone out), Propofol has an amnesic side-effect so that memory of the procedure itself is at worst very blurry, at best non-existant. It can be used for 'deep sedation' procedures, where the patient isn't anesthetised (completely asleep), is rather deeply sedated (will rouse to strong stimulation, otherwise out of it).

From: [identity profile] merimask.livejournal.com


I'll ask him about that. It might actually be something I've had before (during a miscarriage I was given something that put me in a "twilight" sleep, I was told?) & I remember very little & experienced no pain & also recovered quickly from the "sleep".

He does these "in office" procedures though that require minimal anesthesia, so I'm not sure he's able to use something that knocks you out to that degree.

Waaah...I'm getting the chills just thinking about the whole thing. I swear I'm no baby but it REALLY hurt, & for a whole day too.

From: [identity profile] golden-meliades.livejournal.com


For me, that drug is morphine. I really liiiiiike morphine... (And yeah, I know what you mean.)

From: [identity profile] golden-meliades.livejournal.com


I took over a hundred pictures of me in your two masks, btw. Just finished and am now downloading them and am about to discard fuzzy ones/etc and that stuff. Some of them are actually quite striking. I'm going to 'white out' any skin marks if they show in the pictures but I'll leave them alone, even uncropped, otherwise...unless you want me to do something special with them? Or you could ask your brother to make one realllly fancy digitally...that'd be cool. I can Photoshop some cool effects but not to the degree of anyone who actually studies this stuff and uses Photoshop for a living/etc.

From: [identity profile] merimask.livejournal.com


Thank you so much! & no, don't photoshop 'em too much. I sometimes use "smart fix" or one of the balance controls to tweak my pics, but only to get the colors close to true. Too much photoshopping makes people ask "do these masks REALLY look like this or is it an effect?".

From: [identity profile] pamwax.livejournal.com


Actually my doctor only wanted an ovary because he found something he didn't like. I told him if he was cutting me open he was taking the uterus. I had always been so sick with my periods that the prospect of them being gone was like pie in the sky to me. Everyone is different and I understand how you might be afraid of more surgery, but I never noticed anything negative after surgery. And as a bonus Neil never had to hear not tonight honey.

From: [identity profile] merimask.livejournal.com


Intense exercise is about the only thing that really cuts down on the mayhem. When I was working out over the summer I was doing much better in general...but that was like 2 hours on my bike every day plus lifting, & I just can't do that in the winter.

I have to consider all my options. I don't want to regret anything I do, 'cause it's not like I can take it back. :-(

From: [identity profile] aoi-tsuki1.livejournal.com


Can menopause be much worse than what you're going through right now?

...is the question. :o

From: [identity profile] merimask.livejournal.com


Oh heck yes...menopause sucks. Hot flashes and night sweats and mood swings, not to mention weight gain & a number of other embarrassing side effects. I'm dreading it.

From: [identity profile] angeljapan.livejournal.com


Already get those and I'm 25. Err... 26. The hot flashes and night sweats I mean. Stupid hormones! ::shakes fist at body::

From: [identity profile] zannachan.livejournal.com


I'm sorry that you are still having problems--that really sucks. I don't really have any advice, though I can say that both my mom and my mom-in-law had hysterectomies (and in fact had some kind of "uber-hysterectomy" where they take out pretty much everything) and both of them came through just fine.

My mom-in-law had hers removed because of uterine cancer (she had both uterine and breast cancer, but now she's cancer-free and doing great) but she had already gone through menopause so it didn't really effect her one way or another that way. My mom had hers removed when she was pretty young--mid 30's--for medical reasons. Fortunately, mom and dad had already decided that they had already had all their kids, and I think she was put on some kind of hormonal supplement because instant menopause when you're about 35 isn't good for a woman. But her surgery also went well and she hasn't had any long term complications from it.

But I can say that I would definitely talk to your doctor about your fears and concerns, specifically 1) that you aren't sure that it is worth going through the ablation again given that it didn't help much in the first place and 2) that "try" isn't particularly reassuring when it was such a terrible experience the first time around.

Regarding cell phones.... I have a love/hate relationship with them. I love having the option to, for example, call a friend's house when I'm lost trying to find their new home or to let my parents know that I'm stuck in traffic and so am going to be really late but not to worry, I'm okay just stuck in a traffic jam. It is comforting to know that in case of an emergency, people can get a hold of me no matter where I am. I don't like being available to be called 24/7, however, and sometimes turn the ringer off so that I can periodically check and see if anyone called that I would likely need to respond to quickly, but otherwise not be disturbed.

We have had to replace our phones about every 2 years because they stopped working, but I don't really care about all the fancy gadgets. We always get inexpensive phones--all we need are the basics. My phone this time is a little more advanced because I wanted the option of using a blue tooth mike/receiver with so that I can talk hands free; DB's however is the bare bones because he uses it for work and he often goes places where he can't have a camera. It's annoyingly difficult to find a phone without a camera these days--I have really nice digital camera; I don't need or particularly want one in my phone.

From: [identity profile] merimask.livejournal.com


The more I read about hysterectomy, the more I think I did the right thing by avoiding it. For me, it's such a drastic answer to this problem.

Excercising more regularly will help. The iron pills that I had last time...I need those again (the OTC ones I'm taking now make me kind of sick). I might even try the ablation one more time 'cause things did improve by about 25% & that's something. All these decisions...the only thing I know for sure is that I don't want any kind of surgery with my favorite season heading my way. ^_^ If I still have problems next November, I'll think about surgery then. *is procrastinating*

I'm just not crazy about cell phones. To me, it's just a phone. To a kid, it's a status symbol. Char had to have a sleek black katana phone over the summer...HAD to. She's crazy about it.

From: [identity profile] golden-meliades.livejournal.com


I don't even own a cell phone. Never have, almost certainly never will. I never even use my LAND line so why do I need to get a portable line?

From: [identity profile] zannachan.livejournal.com


Would it help to have something that made it easier to exercise inside, in your home? Something like the Wii Fit or even some exercise equipment, like a stationary bike or treadmill?

I would avoid doing the hysterectomy right before the summer, if you do decide to go that route, because you'll want to take time to recover afterward and you're so active during the summer.

Try a different brand of OTC iron pills? I have to be careful which brand of vitamins I buy, because some make me sick. Unfortunately, the generic ones that are cheap are among the offenders; I can take Centrium but they are awfully expensive. However, because of DB's wacky diet constraints I really need to take a multi-vitamin to stay healthy, so I get them anyway.

We got cell phones for purely practical reasons. DB needs his for work because he has to be reached by coworkers and clients during the day, and he's often out at job sites where there are no phones handy. And we both spend so much time on the road, between my school needs, his work, and our social/SCA life--that it's a good thing to have. Just in case--it does a lot for our peace of mind, and it is convenient. But I doubt that anyone would find my phone a status symbol--I have no web, no email updates, just the music and games that came on it and I've disabled texting because I found it annoying. DB's is even more basic because he didn't want the headset option and had to have one without a camera. Which was annoyingly hard to find.

From: [identity profile] merimask.livejournal.com

Re: Masks, quickly


Those are wonderful, thank you!

I commented there & sorry...I just HAD to use my "bouncy" icon. ;-) No offense...I just had to.

From: [identity profile] golden-meliades.livejournal.com

Re: Masks, quickly


Lol, do you know how much of my life has been spent being teased about my boobs? It's doubtful you could offend me. :) I usedta be a G, y'know. Compared to then, what I've got is so little I kind of don't even think of it, even if it's all hangin' out.

From: [identity profile] angeljapan.livejournal.com


Ahhh.... cell phones in Japan. WONDERFUL things. When I saw the phones all my family and friends had back in the US, I felt like weeping at what I was returning too cell phone wise. Then I went to the big electronic store in the town above me and marched up to my carriers rep and asked if they had anything I could use in America, like on an American network, etc. "No. Sorry." ;.; I might go to the other two carriers next and check with them.

I DUN WANT AMERICAN CELL!

From: [identity profile] merimask.livejournal.com


I know! The phones in Japan are pretty awesome. Apparently in some stores in Tokyo it's possible to get phones that will work in America/Europe. It is expensive though! I have no idea why Japan uses a completely different system from everywhere else.
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