I figured you'd understand. We are "of an age", so I know you wrestle with these issues too. I'm a realist, so the inevitability of approaching old age scares the heck out of me. Especially since I feel like my life is just starting to be more like I always wanted it to be. It seems cruel that I spent my entire youth making bad decisions and struggling, and now that I might actually be getting a handle on things, there goes my youth!
I am constantly finishing projects, all the time...I'm working like a crazy person. I don't get a very big payoff anymore, when I finish a project. Oftentimes it goes up in here & that's the only place I get to show it off. I used to do actual shows, and I used to get feedback from my Dad (which meant so much to me), but now it's just another picture in LJ or DA of just another mask, and ho hum. It doesn't satisfy my exhibitionist artist's soul.
The DD in DevArt made me happy but I got so many odd requests (like I said) for handouts of my designs that it just ended up pissing me off.
Probably I'm being too sensitive. A Q&A-style manifesto will probably be the right answer. I just have to sit down & DO it.
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Date: 2009-05-25 06:02 pm (UTC)I am constantly finishing projects, all the time...I'm working like a crazy person. I don't get a very big payoff anymore, when I finish a project. Oftentimes it goes up in here & that's the only place I get to show it off. I used to do actual shows, and I used to get feedback from my Dad (which meant so much to me), but now it's just another picture in LJ or DA of just another mask, and ho hum. It doesn't satisfy my exhibitionist artist's soul.
The DD in DevArt made me happy but I got so many odd requests (like I said) for handouts of my designs that it just ended up pissing me off.
Probably I'm being too sensitive. A Q&A-style manifesto will probably be the right answer. I just have to sit down & DO it.