breathing slow, counting...

[merimask]

Oh I am in a foul mood.  Not sleeping has something to do with it.  The ten inches of snow we're getting today has something to do with it.  Charlotte lost her phone last night at a varsity basketball game...that factors in there somewhere.  I'm living with two very sloppy people who are happiest when they see me cleaning up after them, apparently...that certainly adds to the fun.

One one thousand.  Two one thousand.  Three one thousand...sometimes, counting slowly helps but today, not so much. 

Umm.  I did manage to finish a few masks last night/this morning.  This is the neatest of the bunch; my promised Green Man, with ancient bronze-look paint.
 
I tried something new...moko_moko 's pictures of some lovely bronze lions reminded me that real old bronze ages very dark, so I darkened up the green a lot on this one, & added a black finishing wash to the whole thing.  S'pretty.

Shiny.  I have this mask up in Etsy right now.  It'll be interesting to see how it does.

Oh...I am really not done venting just yet.  Feel free to ignore this.

Here is how my day is going so far.  I'll start with yesterday.
*made lunch for Mom
*went to the Post Office & mailed 2 orders
*chipped ice off driveway because I knew a storm was coming
 *drove Char to friend's house
*picked up groceries
*filled car with gas...storm coming!
*came home, watched news,brushed Kiba, vaccuumed,did dishes
*saw that storm was going to be pretty big, so I packed up yet another order & mailed it right away 'cause I knew I wouldn't have my car today (Greg's car is no good in snow)
*Greg comes home, crashes on couch
*I get Chinese food for dinner, which I have to pick up & pay for
*Char calls from a basketball game for a ride home
*I pick up Char...she informs me that her phone is "gone"
*I fume and work all night on masks
*sleep 2 hours, get up to drive Char to school for mid term exam
*but first I make breakfast for her
*do dishes again
*clean sink/stove/counter because it is covered with yuk from Greg & Char being slobs with orange juice last night
*clean cat box
*find Char's old phone & charger for old phone
*shovel driveway & clean off car
*drive Char to school through a blizzard...she bitches 'cause I don't have cash for coffee at Tim Horton's
*back home...shovel again

So Greg leaves for work late because while I was doing all this, he played a nice video game.   Fortunately the car is nice and warm for him, and snow free.  He thinks it's funny that I have a headache.  I do not get a kiss goodbye.

And then, I photograph my new mask, clean up the pics in Photoshop, list it in Etsy, and sit down to write all this.

See, here is the thing.  I am busting my butt to keep sales going.  I'm trying to list something new every day.  That means I am making something all the time.  Making it isn't enough; I have to photograph it, write copy, list things, answer e-mail, do my PR work, package orders, mail stuff...it's a LOT of work.  Which of course I don't mind because I love what I do.

But then, on top of all that, I am also responsible for SO MUCH here.  This whole house grinds to a stop without me.  Every crisis is my responsibility.  Disciplining Char (who has been excessively teenagery for weeks now) is also my responsibility.  All home & pet maintenance...my responsibility.  And when I complain I'm teased.  And when I remind people of their small parts that I expect them to play in daily life (put on gloves for crying out loud...it's 10 degrees outside!  Don't forget your lunch!  You are supposed to be at "fill in the blank" in ten minutes...hurry up!) I am told that I am "nagging".  

Really I am hitting a wall here.  The very next thing that happens that I don't like is going to push me too far, today.  I predict I am going to scare the crap out of everyone by just screaming at the top of my lungs.   It'll be scary/funny.
 
*sigh*  It's snowing like CRAZY out there.  I need a vacation. 

Comments

[zannachan.livejournal.com]

d'oh! I got so focused on responding to your frustration that I forgot to mention that I adore your new Green Man mask. He's gorgeous, absolutely gorgeous.

[merimask.livejournal.com]

Thank you. :-) I was pretty happy with it too.