Pfffft...

[merimask]

 

All my happy thoughts are drying up & blowing away.  I'm gripped by the most annoying kind of ennui; the kind where you still get things done but you don't know why you're bothering.  I've probably been pushing myself too hard.

You know, it's a great & terrible thing to make a living doing what you love because sooner or later you run out of love and then, you're just making a living.   I'm a spoiled brat & not used to that. 

I need to kick it down a notch but I can't, because I've foolishly taken on a lot of financial burdens lately (which is probably exactly how I managed to kill the love).   Everyone is counting on me for everything.  Can't lean on anyone, can't afford to slack off.

So, I'm just going through the motions here.  Hoping the love comes back soon.

If spring will just stick around for more than a day, I'll be a bit happier about all of it. 

 

 

Comments

[merimask.livejournal.com]

April seems like a tough month, not as tough as February but still...it's like an "in between" month and there's so much you want to do but can't quite get started yet. I remember April was rough on both of us last year.

I'm okay, I'm just at an "in between" place & really, I DID take on too much this month with taxes & car payments & advertising...general stuff.

But it's all good. This always happens & it never lasts for long.

[golden-meliades.livejournal.com]

Do you need more Skip Beat? Lol, it's my solution to everything ;)

I feel totally blah today myself, even though I've done a lot of cleaning, so soon I'll put a new stick (using awesome hand painted glass gypsy beads, which I haven't taken out of my stock before) on DevArt, I'll make the bed up fresh, shower...and then perhaps go out and get some healthy groceries. (I had candy this morning. Ugh. You're happy when you eat it but then you feel all sticky and wasted away afterwards...)

Then maybe a little more cleaning. A super productive day that's not too high energy would really help out, in my case.