When all else fails, cry like a girl.

[merimask]

 Yep, sorry for yesterday.  I think Angel was right...I think the loss of my daily bike ride means I don't get my daily endorphin fix, & that is probably what is making me nuts.   Greg got home in time for me to take a short ride yesterday, & I'm pedalling along & crying at the same time like a freaking loon (though I did feel lots better by the time I was done).  Also I was crying yesterday because I was watching the Ellen show, & Ellen was upset because a puppy she placed in a home got confiscated by the adoption agency.  It's a stupid thing but I am obviously unbalanced 'cause I was crying about it.

And no...I do not have my period.  So it can't be hormones.  Already thought about that.

I guess I've replaced my addiction to chocolate with an addiction for exercise.  Both cause an endorphin rush, & that's what most depression drugs do anyway (stimulate endorphin production), so I guess it's no surprise.

I better be sure to join an exercise club or something for the winter (there's a new all-women's club just up the road from us...not even a five-minute drive from my house).   I go for long winter walks with Kiba too, & believe me it's a workout just keeping up with him.  Once I'm mobile, all will be well.

I may be mobile soon, in fact.  I refuse to get excited about it, but my car is possibly done.  I will reserve judgement until I actually drive it home...last time, it was blinking warning lights at me & stalling & was obviously not right.  Four thousand dollars later, it BETTER be right.  It still has the original oil leak it had before all this drama started, by the way.  That's another 800 or so to fix.  Honestly, if we'd been informed just how expensive all this work would be, we'd have paid the damn thing off & I'd be driving a '05 Subaru Outback by now.  *pout*  Live & learn.  I think mechanics live for people like us.  They see people who'd rather fix a thing than throw it away, & dollar signs start flashing before their eyes.

My Dad was like that.  He had a Volvo repainted twice because he loved that car & just kept it going forever.  I don't know if it's a learned behavior or something in the genes, but I obviously have that trait too.  I never have the newest, shiniest version of anything & I'm ok with that.  As long as it WORKS.   

Oh well.  *sigh*

In other news; the Etsy thing is going really really well.  I have a repeat customer!  Also, big hugs for Suze & Charis, for placing orders as well.  Everything will be in the mail tomorrow.  I'm putting a few new things up today...hopefully between getting my car & taking Char to her medical appointment I'll have time to finish a fox mask or two.  Busy busy.

You all rock.  What would I do if I didn't have you guys to vent all over? 

Comments

[redmagus.livejournal.com]

I'm going to guess vent over the cat?

Trust me, am there with the car thing. Thankfully I have a friend who gets me parts for cheap. He's handing labor off to another friend though, so now I'm worried that guy will overcharge the crap outta me.

/sigh. At least it's only a few hundred dollars as opposed to the thousands you're spending.

Oh, and if you're thinking about it, avoid a treadmill or any exercise machine. Unless you want a new clothing horse. You have to have a dedicated room to those things if you really want to make it work.

Congrats with Etsy though!

[golden-meliades.livejournal.com]

I bought an elliptical two or three years and used it so much that I wore it out and had to buy a treadmill two days ago, which I used this morning and loved. Honestly, it's all in the dedication...though it's true that for about 95% of people, exercise machines DON'T get used. But I really don't think it's due to a lack of a dedicated room, since I don't have one...and up here it is either indoor cardio machines or no exercise at all because exercising outside in the winter is next to impossible.

[redmagus.livejournal.com]

Then I bow in awe of your dedication m'lady. I saw my parents go through three of those things personally.

[golden-meliades.livejournal.com]

You mean they went through three *without using them*?? If so, it boggles the mind.

[redmagus.livejournal.com]

Well, they used them for a few weeks or so... but yea, pretty much.

Typical suburban family -_-'

[golden-meliades.livejournal.com]

But why did they have to buy a new one to replace one that was never worn out from use? I mean...you can't *lose* a treadmill, right? Or...did they buy one, not use it, then get rid of it, then a few years later try again?

I did have a weight machine as a teen that I never used...but now I have a Bowflex Extreme 2 that I use all the time. The difference was definitely in my intention to stick to it. The Bowflex is in my living room and is huge and ugly and I wish I could hide it...and the treadmill is out in front of the bathroom where I can fold the track up so it only occupies a small(ish) space.

[redmagus.livejournal.com]

bingo about the "getting rid of it" and getting a new one. cept the went from the treadmill to one of those "all in one" machines, and then back to the treadmill since it hid easier

[merimask.livejournal.com]

It's funny...I have a recumbent indoor bike & I have NO problem using it in the winter. I open the curtains wide & watch the snow fall & pedal away happily like a hamster on a wheel. I just can't bring myself to use it in good weather though...I don't know why. I guess I'd really rather be outside, unless it's freezing cold.

[golden-meliades.livejournal.com]

Oh I don't use either of my machines in the summer, either. But the first half of spring and the second half of autumn and all through winter, I haven't got much other choice. All of October has been too cold for biking and really rather miserable even for jogging. And the snow often isn't completely gone until May, so...