When all else fails, cry like a girl.

[merimask]

 Yep, sorry for yesterday.  I think Angel was right...I think the loss of my daily bike ride means I don't get my daily endorphin fix, & that is probably what is making me nuts.   Greg got home in time for me to take a short ride yesterday, & I'm pedalling along & crying at the same time like a freaking loon (though I did feel lots better by the time I was done).  Also I was crying yesterday because I was watching the Ellen show, & Ellen was upset because a puppy she placed in a home got confiscated by the adoption agency.  It's a stupid thing but I am obviously unbalanced 'cause I was crying about it.

And no...I do not have my period.  So it can't be hormones.  Already thought about that.

I guess I've replaced my addiction to chocolate with an addiction for exercise.  Both cause an endorphin rush, & that's what most depression drugs do anyway (stimulate endorphin production), so I guess it's no surprise.

I better be sure to join an exercise club or something for the winter (there's a new all-women's club just up the road from us...not even a five-minute drive from my house).   I go for long winter walks with Kiba too, & believe me it's a workout just keeping up with him.  Once I'm mobile, all will be well.

I may be mobile soon, in fact.  I refuse to get excited about it, but my car is possibly done.  I will reserve judgement until I actually drive it home...last time, it was blinking warning lights at me & stalling & was obviously not right.  Four thousand dollars later, it BETTER be right.  It still has the original oil leak it had before all this drama started, by the way.  That's another 800 or so to fix.  Honestly, if we'd been informed just how expensive all this work would be, we'd have paid the damn thing off & I'd be driving a '05 Subaru Outback by now.  *pout*  Live & learn.  I think mechanics live for people like us.  They see people who'd rather fix a thing than throw it away, & dollar signs start flashing before their eyes.

My Dad was like that.  He had a Volvo repainted twice because he loved that car & just kept it going forever.  I don't know if it's a learned behavior or something in the genes, but I obviously have that trait too.  I never have the newest, shiniest version of anything & I'm ok with that.  As long as it WORKS.   

Oh well.  *sigh*

In other news; the Etsy thing is going really really well.  I have a repeat customer!  Also, big hugs for Suze & Charis, for placing orders as well.  Everything will be in the mail tomorrow.  I'm putting a few new things up today...hopefully between getting my car & taking Char to her medical appointment I'll have time to finish a fox mask or two.  Busy busy.

You all rock.  What would I do if I didn't have you guys to vent all over? 

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Things are slowly working out. It's just taking a lot of time, money, organizational skills, & patience. Usually I do fine but it's been ganging up on me. *sigh* I'll be ok though.